Well, my parents dont fucking give a damn about me. Yst exams ended,and she asking me to start working again now. Actually no,she asked me to start working again yst,and worse still,she knows im still recovering from my flu,but no, she doesnt care,just keeps asking me to study. Fuck. And bella, well, this will be the end of using the name bella. She doesnt think anything is possible between us. She lied to me 2 days ago. She lied to me for god knows how long. I dont know wot she says is true or just another lie to make me feel better. Well,this did not make me feel any better. It was horrible having to think about it. She had to choose to tell me on the day i finished my exams. She had to do it. But well,i cant say i didnt expect this. I knew it since half term,and her excuses after half term. I knew it from the many little things she does to try to convince me that we could have a chance. I just dont know why she had to do it. It just hurts so much. So so much. Almost 2 whole term of waiting, then she gave me false hopes,so much false hopes. And now, its ....... Just gone. Goodbye Bella
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